Sad Chelsea I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Please try to be safe. If you are feeling like you're going to do anything drastic, please call 1-(800)-273-8255. Just to talk to someone who might be able to help.
What the neurologist said was terrible. I wonder how doctors like that are never held to account for their terrible behavior. Anyway, you know that what he said is untrue. Please take loving, gentle care of yourself and keep posting.