I'm now just sitting on the floor, sobbing cos I was just reminded about how screwed up my parents are and how they just hate me.
They never wanted me born really, or my brother, my mother said that because of my birth she was now stuck with her husband and could not get a divorce anymore. I guess that's why she wants me to grow up in her image so that her "money" on me does not go to waste. An hour ago, I told her I wanted to become an actor. She became furious and was disgusted by what I just said. She wants me to become a lawyer so as to earn a good sum of money and repay her all the money she spent on me raising me up. She said if an actor is what I want to be when I grow up, then I might as well go and kill myself now and not waste her time anymore. It's not the first time she has wanted me to die though. She always keeps telling me how badly she wanted to just strangle me when I was born, how she just wants for me and my brother to die so that she can finally leave my father and lead a better life.
It's painful that's all I can say. That's why I always feel like wanting to die too I guess. Nobody's holding me back. I've got no love here, I'm sure as hell not going to be loved in the future. So what's there left in the world for me?
That's my short story of childhood abandonment. I'm sorry for all those others who have similar feelings as me. It's hard and I just wish that all of us didn't have to go through with this.