I am a homebody, I like to read, draw, puzzles, keep to myself. But these days I sit down in front of a piece of paper and I can't do it. I get annoyed, almost, and I need to get up and go. But I have nowhere to go, my friends are friends, but not the type to hang out with me as often as I need it. I get out of bed and I really do try. Everyday I find a reason to leave the house and it starts to feel like I'm just wasting my hours until I can justify going back to sleep.

School has always been difficult for me to focus on, I have taken college classes and even with my extreme interest in a few of them, I failed. I didn't even try, but I felt like I was trying so hard to TRY (does that make sense?) and it wasn't working. I feel stuck. I'm trying meditation multiple times a day. I've started at a gym. I'm trying to live a normal life but that fact that I have to try so hard doesn't seem worth it

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