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Old Jul 12, 2015, 04:12 PM
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Its tough to be motivated when you feel the way you describe. some tricks I use is a hot soak in a bubble bath, with music playing and candles. I also picked up some colored pencils and ordered adult coloring books, mostly mandalas and henna designs. i try to pick pastels or vibrant colors. this can be a challenge but they turn out nice and i actually did something and can share with friends. lot of people recommend journalling, that not a good one for me unless i have a specific topic in mind. right now im journalling on the 7 virtrues. it has changed my mindset. not as lost as i thought.

hope you fell better soon

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8]I'm 22 years old. I've started therapy and medication for 'depression', but quickly had to discontinue due to moving states and not having any health coverage in this new place. Which is okay, I didn't find the medication helpful and honestly my therapist was doing nothing for me. But now I am just tired. Always. I see no point in focusing any energy into anything because nothing makes me happy. I have no real skills or hobbies, no interests. I have a dog and a cat and my happiest moments are when it is just us. I don't want to end my life, I just don't see the point in continuing it. I don't see myself doing something that makes me happy, I don't know of anything that really does. I can't focus in school and I have a hard time communicating with anyone who isn't 100% genuine. And there aren't a lot of those people out there, especially here in SoCal. I'm constantly looking to get as far away from where I am, searching for something that makes me feel like I'm not a huge waste of time. But it seems as if that's all I am doing, waiting for stimulation. I have a job, minimum wage and part time, constantly looking for more but there aren't many opportunities. My pay checks go from where I work straight to bills, I have bounced around so much throughout my life that I don't have a 'home base' to return to. I've lived in many spare rooms of aunts, cousins, grandparents. What am I doing here if there is no reason for me to be? I feel like the only reason to live is to appease to my family and friends. And that's not making me happy at all.[/QUOTE]