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Old Jul 12, 2015, 05:07 PM
madera23 madera23 is offline
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Location: california
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Originally Posted by Lildevil262626 View Post
I'm 22 years old. I've started therapy and medication for 'depression', but quickly had to discontinue due to moving states and not having any health coverage in this new place. Which is okay, I didn't find the medication helpful and honestly my therapist was doing nothing for me. But now I am just tired. Always. I see no point in focusing any energy into anything because nothing makes me happy. I have no real skills or hobbies, no interests. I have a dog and a cat and my happiest moments are when it is just us. I don't want to end my life, I just don't see the point in continuing it. I don't see myself doing something that makes me happy, I don't know of anything that really does. I can't focus in school and I have a hard time communicating with anyone who isn't 100% genuine. And there aren't a lot of those people out there, especially here in SoCal. I'm constantly looking to get as far away from where I am, searching for something that makes me feel like I'm not a huge waste of time. But it seems as if that's all I am doing, waiting for stimulation. I have a job, minimum wage and part time, constantly looking for more but there aren't many opportunities. My pay checks go from where I work straight to bills, I have bounced around so much throughout my life that I don't have a 'home base' to return to. I've lived in many spare rooms of aunts, cousins, grandparents. What am I doing here if there is no reason for me to be? I feel like the only reason to live is to appease to my family and friends. And that's not making me happy at all.
One thing you can do is be thankful for those spare rooms of aunts, cousins, and grandparents.
The reason for you to be is to search and find that reason to live and maybe it may be just around the corner. Try praying, it is a place to start. God answers in His time, after he has made some changes in you .

Have patience. Stop appeasing and just be yourself. you may lose a few and find a few.
No one said life is easy, but, by doing your best it will become easier.
So rest, be thankful and be happy.
Madera

Last edited by FooZe; Jul 13, 2015 at 01:10 PM. Reason: administrative edit to bring within guidelines