You must be feeling really anxious over this situation! Communication is of utmost importance, imo. If you haven't already, you need to discuss this at length with your PDoc. Sometimes they aren't really aware of all that is going on with their patients, as they observe medication outcomes and try to move patients back into society if they have no reason not too.

I would surely share your anxiety and concerns with your new therapist too. Your T just might be able to have some quick help for you, but having another person in your "corner" is reassuring too.

Just because the pdoc says you should try to work doesn't mean you absolutely have to. You might need to prove that you can't work by trying, you know? If you can try, that would show you're willing to work towards that goal, but doesn't mean you can work. Nothing is etched in steel here on this...so breathe...do your best... and talk to the doctors more about what is really going on inside you, ok? TC!