Update: it turns out that my T may be more ill than I realized. She said she is waiting for test results and will let me know wheyher or not we can have out session next week. First and foremost, I'm worried about my T! Even beyond the context of therapy, I really care about her as a person. She has three kids and a ton of other people who love her and need her. I care more about her well being than I do about my sessions. After that foremost concern, however, I am worried about the future of my therapy. If we miss next week, that will be the third session we have missed in the last 30 days. This is the hardest time I have had since I started therapy, and I've had virtually no therapeutic support. I don't know how much longer I can go without therapy, or even knowing if/when my T is coming back. Finally, I feel like I'm losing my connection with my T. I still really care about her, but I don't feel close to her like I used to and I don't feel as though I can rely on her when she is obviously going through her own health struggle (and she still hasn't told me what her doctors are testing for). If she does have something serious, it would not feel right to dump my stuff on her even if she does return to work. But I also can't imagine starting over with someone new after working with my T for 5 years and having the kind of relationshup where we say "I love you." I don't think I would ever have that with another T. Hopefully, T will be just fine... but what if she's not?