i'm 300 pounds, nobody but a blind person would fall in love with me. i'm 18 & have the sagging body of an old lady. it's doubtful anyone would find me attractive enough to date or kiss or sleep with. i know there's more to it than looks, but people see me & they don't even give me a chance. others would just want to fetishize my big body, and i don't want to be just somebody's fetish. the only way i can find romantic love is if i lose the weight. just because i'm worthy of love as i am does not mean i will get love. i must change.

i agree, i do need to learn to love myself. but it's hard when nobody else wants to. i don't want to be the only one in the entire world who loves me.

i am just so hard on myself.