Well, was away for a bit but now I am unemployed again, don't have enough to do which means, I am alone with me

Things aren't going well

Lonely, depressed, despairing

My particular flavour of depression manifests as ennui. I lose all drive, all desire

Intellectually I know I have to get my *** in gear, get out there and find a job but my brain doesn't work so well and I literally don't care

But I know should