jman197, i was like you back in the days when i took drugs to overcome my depression, i'm not a junkie tho, but sometimes i use drugs just to let myself out of depression, and yes we need money for that, glad i'm away from drugs now, i dont feel the urge to use drugs anymore when i'm depressed. we're not legally supposed to do drugs, but we do what we have to do at that time, we could do stupid things, if we still breathing afterwards it means we strong enough to pass the darkest hours, if i gave up then, maybe i wouldn't be here right now. i'm still depressed today, my suicidal thoughts is killing me, i'm still trying to find a way, you'll find a way too soon or later.