OkieDokie-- I am deeply sorry for what happened to you.

I understand that you may pick up on particular cues based on your personal situation. And I also understand and appreciate you looking out for mine.

However, I think it impossible to know or to get a feel for someone else's relationship with their T when you aren't actually in it. We all share similar experiences, but we all have unique relationships with our therapists.

There are other pieces to make a story whole. For example, for him to make a comment about coming back on Friday-- this is something he says to me every week. It has to do with my fear of such a strong attachment, and stating (especially today) that sometimes it would be easier not to come back then to have to continue with all of the intense feelings.

Today was a very special session. It was the first time he ever disclosed anything like that to me. For weeks I have struggled with the one-sided connection. Insisting to him that he couldn't possibly feel anything back. And you are right-- he was feeling me out. He was feeling me out for the right time to disclose such an emotion. I believe it was risky, but calculated. I like that he took that risk. He never has before. Knowing myself (obviously), I can understand why. In the past. Today he demonstrated that the connection goes two ways. I needed to know that, and the timing was right.

We share a lot of humor in our relationship. His sense of humor is similar to mine-- dry, a bit sarcastic, a little bantering.

I have a pretty wild personality. In a good way. I think. Maybe. I can also get very intense. Often. There are very few people in this world that I have met, who can keep up with all that. He is one of them.

He has never been anything but appropriate for last two years. Again, I am so very sorry for what happened to you. Especially as a student therapist, it absolutely disgusts me that anyone in this field could use their power to hurt someone else. However, I do think that you are interpreting what happens between me and my T based on your own experience rather than mine.