Hey Amandalouise - Thanks for the reply

Things here have progressed a fair bit over the last few months. Not as much as I want, but re-reading this thread reminds me just how much things have moved on.

My T won't diagnose anything - its not a criteria thing, he just doesn't like labelling people and doesn't find doing so useful! However, he is now definitely following a treatment pattern for Dissociation. Its become way to obvious for me to ignore - like when we were walking along and he said 'Ive not met you before', and I was completely, like 'no, you haven't. And that was the truth. And then five minutes later I was, like 'wooooooaaaaaahhhh - WTF' cos Ive been seeing him nearly a year! I still don't have any names for anyone inside me, so he is naming them for me

But - Im still really struggling with the memories. Because they don't feel like my memories, I just can't trust that they are true. Your comment about 'gut instinct' really rang true to me. I think if it was a memory of falling down and hurting my knee, I would know that I could trust these memories. Because they are memories and I do know that. But because I can't relate to them at all, and it doesn't feel like it happened to me, and if I accept that they are true --- it will just tear the family apart and I would absolutely go to the police --- I can't just go 'oh alright then, I believe them' - because the consequences would be so huge. I have to be 100% sure that they are real. And they just. Well, they just don't feel real, even though I know they are. Its really really confusing. I don't want to accuse anyone of anything so awful without being sure, and even though Im sure. Im not sure. URGH. I just wish I could think of something, anything, else- other than this.