He's human.... so now what?

I don't know.

Obviously I cannot think of a single thing besides my session tonight. Why even try?

I have struggled for a while with seeing my T as a blank slate/object-type thingy vs. a real person.

I always figured he was a blank slate. I could throw every single emotion at him-- what would he feel? Nothing. What human could endure that?

I really give the guy a hard time. I mean, I know that analysis is designed to express any emotion towards the therapist.

But today he disclosed that he feels something towards me. Not with me, but towards me. I never doubted his empathy-- I can pick up on it all the time. My point is that I never thought what happened in that here-and-now interaction affected him emotionally in that way. I think that's what I'll start with on Friday.

What a softie. Haha, jk.