Argh! I haven't been getting any notifications of responses!

With every surgery that I've had since having the device installed, including leg amputations, there has been a company rep that has come just prior to surgery and turned the device off.

I'll be meeting with my cardiologist and my psychiatrist on July 29 to discuss the possibility and risk of ECT. I am not responding well to meds. Sixteen years ago I responded extraordinarily well to ECT – three sessions a week for sixteen weeks (with a short follow up eight months or so later).

I had a couple of weeks when it seemed as if things were improving but the last week has been hell. For those who can relate, I'm add the very edge of the hole and the slightest breeze could tip me in. Nauseous, anxiety ridden, worthless and so, so, so overwhelmingly sad. I almost called my doc last night to see if he would admit me, the very thing that I am trying to avoid. I know that I can call, email or fax but I'm just not certain that I can make it until the 29th.

Thanks to ALL who have replied. I have to find the settings so that I can get an email with a reply.