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Originally Posted by Lexa2526
Hi, there. I'm confused about my roller-coaster thoughts/emotions this last week. I've posted this under Emotions Thread as well.
Let's go back an hour ago. An hour ago, I was fine. I wanted to talk, tried to socialize, both on and offline. I felt surrounded by warmth, comfort and peace. I wanted company, and was enjoying the company I have.
In short, I was ok.
Fast forward to now. I don't want to anyone to talk to me. I don't want to talk to anyone. I'm forcing conversation. I want to lock myself in a fortress somewhere away from everyone and everything, and just be. I want to be alone. Kinda like the way that princess from Frozen chucks it all to the wind, walks off, and locks herself away. I'm imagining doing the same thing.
It makes no sense to me, because nothing out of the ordinary happened to trigger that "I want to lock myself away" feeling.
It's been like this for a few days. Based on the experience of the last few days, I'm going to go back to ok, social, me in a while or so.
Does anyone else feel this way?
I'm not sure what this is, but I'm not liking it. Can it be two or more of the others making their feelings known? One ok, one feeling off?
P.S. Note, it switches like this a few times in one day.
Input of any kind would be highly appreciated.  .
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in me my treatment provider calls this ...mood swings....and with me it happens with many different things....depression, anxiety, PTSD, work stress, my bipolar disorder, ...gosh I could go on and on.
usually what helps stabilize my mood swings is doing grounding and medication changes. and changing the situation...if I get this way at work I take a break. if I get this way at home I go for a walk, go row my canoe on the lake....
before I was integrated, I once thought it was alters too but my therapist told me a great way to tell the difference...
when someone is co conscious with their alters they perceive the emotions, thoughts, voices as that alters, not as their own...
example...
Rainy is feeling...
thelma is feeling...
not the first person of I am feeling..
if it was....I ....am feeling - then it was a mood swing.
if it was Rainy is feeling- then it was co consciousness with that alter and that alters feelings.
its a reality testing thing, like knowing what is your neighbors feelings vs what are your own. people with DID perceive things as the alters or mine. after she explained this to me it was so much easier to tell the difference and at the same time explained those times as a child when it wasnt a mood swing but an alters feelings like ...
as a child I used to get so upset when my angry alter would take control and say something angry and then I would get blamed for it, knowing it wasnt me feeling and saying angry things.
my suggestion is try reality testing. it really works for those confusing times when trying to figure out if its the alters or one self.