Hi always,

"I could go on forever. I do take some responsibility and believe I could have dealt with situations better and i admitted that and tried to change for the better but sometimes I felt so trapped. Please help me, am I crazy? Do you think I need help"
YOU tried to change for the better????!!!!!! Sounds like HE had a lot of changing to do!!!!!
A lot more than I imagine you needed to.
But how do you need to change.........??? Well you haven't really given me anything in there to go with, about the relationship............and even if you had then I'd still say it doesn't matter, it can only be harmful to you being in a relationship with someone like that so GOOD it's over!!!
Please do not try to get him back.
And the bigger changes you may need to make/the help you may need...........well they/that probably center around not allowing anyone to treat you like that in future relationships, demanding/expecting more in relationships or/and walking away if that isn't going to happen.
But I don't know, do some of those problems come from low self-esteem, just wanting to be with someone, from watching other people being treated like/accepting that/"normalising it"????
Perhaps finding the roots of why you stuck with him and addressing them, will help you in not finding yourself in that kind of situation/relationship again, or maybe just reminding yourself over and over that you deserve so much more from a relationship/partner than that.
And now..........don't know if you're ready yet...........but try to celebrate the ending of the relationship and do something good/nice for yourself- sounds like there wasn't that much of that in the relationship!!!



Alison