Wow. Running a group session sounds like torture!

I talked all about group in individual session today. I said how I felt like a failure afterward and how I always felt like an idiot whenever I talked. I said I think the online forums I come to (here) are probably what group therapy is supposed to be since I come on here and participate. I just need the buffer of having time to think about what I want to say and being able to say it right. T suggested that I say (in group) that I want to respond but need to think about what I want to say. Naturally the pressure of an audience waiting on me would be overwhelming so I don't see that working. We talked about comfort too -- and how the idea of my sharing what's going on in my life with the group doesn't sound comforting to me. I guess I like escapism as comfort (happy music, psyching myself up on caffeine) rather than talking about things.

I don't know. Maybe I'll try to talk next week. They'd be happy to put the spotlight on me if I suddenly tried to dominate the conversation with my own feelings about how things are going! I don't see myself drumming up the nerve though.

Sidony