Hi Teacup,

I'm so sorry you feel so unsupported, right now
But one thing is for definite, you are going to find people who care on here
Now real kudos for all the attempts you been making, I know it can be real hard to work up that kind of effort when you're battling with depression.
Doctors..........I'm sorry I'm not from your country and you probably have tried everything anyway........but just wondering if you have any walk in medical centres around you............if you have maybe the excuse that you can't get an appointment to see your doctor...........???
Otherwise it sounds like you're left with being very, very "direct" with your doctor if that makes any difference, I'm sorry
And no friends sounds pretty isolating too..............but of course maybe part of or all of that could be down to the depression............can very hard to make/find or maintain connections if you're feeling/are depressed.
I don't know whether you could at least for now pull on family members a bit more?? But if not, or regardless, you can turn to us on here.
I don't know how much we can help (but maybe) but at least we can offer you some understanding and support and sometimes that in itself can help a bit........and we can/do care. So keep on talking, hey?? You're not alone

Alison