what is is ... it happened ... it's in the past ... you can't change it ... why torture yourself over something you can't change ... why look back at all ... the present is all that we need ... we need to live in the moment ... bp is hard enough day by day ... impossible if we drag the past with it ... let go of the past ... live for today ... live, love, enjoy your life ... God bless you,, I wish you the best ... please be kind to yourself ...