I saw the post on the bipolar thread too.

Is it possible that this is hypomania talking?

Not sure I read it right but it seems that you kind of think the ok wages somehow diminish your worth? Me personally would love a job where I didn't have to deal with many people during the day, so much less stress. Some of the things that triggers an episode or makes it worse are long hours, dealing with the stress of pressure and not having flexibility to deal with the symptoms as they come up. It sounds as if you have a great job for dealing with bipolar.

If you want to find out if you can do something else is it possible to ask for a leave of absence say for a year. Then give yourself a year to make it.