I can really relate to you, it is like reading about my own life !I cant give you any advice other than try to love youself a little bit more, I find my mood also depends on his so if he is down then whoops I follow etc.

If I am upset I like to have my children near me I have even kept them off of school in the past, all though I am fighting that one hard as I know this is wrong.

Hugs and thinking of you .........Trish.