I don't know what I want from this post. It's probably too long for people to read.

I'm really overwhelmed by all that is going on in my life right now. We had a baby 6 weeks ago and she may have a sensitivity to something my wife is eating, probably dairy. She's stuffed up and not feeding/sleeping well. My wife's parents spent a month in town and were very rude and inconsiderate, doing things like complaining we aren't feeding them after they show up unannounced, gossiping to the rest of her family, etc. They went home last Saturday.

1) Saturday I had to drive my wife's son and her nephew to meet my wife's parents closer to their house because they wouldn't come pick them up. The baby was overtired and fussy and the trip which would normally have taken 6 hours took almost 10 due to stops for feeding, etc.

2) Yesterday (Monday) when I got home the deadbolt on my door fell apart in my hand. I had to rush out to the store to replace it.

Later, the psychologist that did my Asperger's assessment showed up at my door canvasing for a political party. I was a bit shocked and my dog got out, and then rolled around the feet of the woman that was with him while we talked for a bit. Then my dog ran off and I had to go catch her... When I got back in the house I was shaking. I have mixed feelings about him, he was likable but had a habit of talking too much, putting words in my mouth and forgetting important stuff.

3) Tonight (Tuesday) I see my doctor. I have kidney disease (IgA nephropathy) and recently had an ultrasound of my kidneys. A few days later my doctor's office called and said I had a CT scan scheduled. Tonight I will be getting the results. I had an ultrasound 8 years ago and wasn't sent for a CT scan so I am scared that something has changed.

I am also going to ask my doctor if I can see someone else at the same clinic. I don't trust my doctor all that much. I have had several issues with the way he has been prescribing medication (side effects not taken seriously, combinations that should not be used, reluctance to treat things), not following through on what he said he was going to do, etc... My therapist has been pushing me for a long time to find a new doctor. I am more scared about doing this than the results of the CT scan. The first words out of my mouth will likely be some version of "I was wondering if I could switch to see Dr. xxx instead".

4) Tomorrow (Wednesday) my wife has an appointment to see someone at the local children's hospital about postpartum depression and she is taking me. She had really bad depression after her first child and the hospital arranged for her to have contact with the maternal mental health clinic at the hospital. She's been really anxious since the baby was born and her sister and I both suggested she contact them early. She wants me to tell the person she is seeing there why I thought she should see them.

When I was in highschool I was seeing a therapist provided by the same hospital, I want to ask if she is still working as I have some questions I'd like answered, but I may be too scared. I also don't know if it is appropriate.

5) On Thursday I have an appointment with my psychiatrist. I have a lot to talk to her. I've reduced my therapy down to once a month as I can't afford any more than my insurance provides now. I've talked about this in another post... I will be asking her if she thinks I should have more than 12 and if so if she could refer me to the community mental health clinic. I have reservations about this as I feel guilty about not paying and taking away from someone who potentially has more serious problems. Also I really like my current therapist and would miss her quite a bit. I also will ask if there is anything else she can help me get to provide some support.

I messed up the time of the appointment the last time I saw her and I had things I wanted to talk about. She saw me anyway, even though I threw her schedule off, but I didn't bring up anything I wanted to talk about. I likely have some mild brain damage and I am wondering if that is a factor in any of my symptoms, other than ones that the psychologist from #2 above identified.

Before the baby I was sad a lot and almost crying when I was in the car, after the baby I am overwhelmed by everything going on. I wasn't as sad for a few weeks but the last few days it has come back and I think it's worse than before. She will likely increase my medication again, which also worries me as it is quite expensive (Cymbalta, no generic available here apparently), even with my insurance.