Today my best friends told me they don't want to be friends with me anymore. When I'm depressed I tend to isolate myself. I'm very bad at picking up phones and going out of the house makes me either break out in tears or have a panic attack. They told me I don't care about them because I don't go out with them anymore, even if I've tried explaining to them many times about my condition. I feel terrible, like a horrible, horrible person. My illness has stolen everything from me, from my fit body, to my boyfriend, to my studies and now finally to my friends. I feel so alone.