I think it might have been a mistake to bring it up with her at all...I really don't think she would know what to do with it, and I am embarrassed about it and ashamed of it, and I think it would just be more evidence of how screwed up I am. And she's going to think it all has to do with trauma, which is going to confuse me even more, since I have had this interest literally as long as I can remember, prior to trauma occurring. I think T just won't know how to respond or what to say and it will make me feel even more like a freak than I already feel. It already feels like I've said too much, like a part of me I've always kept hidden for my whole life is out there now, even in a small way, and I'm scared! I think maybe we should just forget I ever said anything.