Update: I saw her today and she told me she might have cancer. She is waiting for the official results. She doesn't know if she will have to take a long leave or what the outcome might be. She said she will let me know when she finds out. I'm so worried about her! I held it together in session, but I cried as soon as I left. She also told me that I'm the first client she thought about when she found out she might have cancer, and I'm the only client she's told about it. She said I'm also the only client who asked her about how she was doing and showed genuine concern for her (she had to cancel all appointments last week while in the hospital). She said she has already been thinking about what will happen if she has to take an extended leave. She said if she can't be my T anymore, she's already been thinking about if/how she can still see me in some capacity. She has been talking to some kind of supervisor/consultant, who is telling her not to say anything to clients yet-- but I'm really glad she was honest with me anyway. I love her and I can't bear the thought of her having cancer or the thought of not being able to see her. I don't want to see another T. She's been my T for over 5 years and eventhough she is "just" my T, she's also the closest thing I've ever had to a mom. I know that she isn't my family, but it feels like she is. She feels that way about me also. I'm totally devastated. I'm really, really hoping that her test results turn out better than expected, but it really doesn't look good. I could tell that she was scared when she was telling me about it and she didn't look good.