(((((Canders))))) i know it's really tough doing what you're doing. yes, it means a lot to your friends that you are being there for them. they may not be able to tell you how grateful they are due to their depression or othe issues. but, it does mean a whole lot. i know you feel that you're failing in helping your friends. it's really hard to do what you're doing - for anyone, that is. of course, you do need to take care of yourself. rest, pay attention to yourself, etc. it's no self-centered. i cannot remember, but someone said that if you can't take care of you, you can't take care of others. i've had times when i plain could not get out of bed other than to go to the bathroom. i've had instance where i had to help a couple of people here and used up more than my brain's reserves. i had to take a break from coming here for a day or two. then, i'm ok again.