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Originally Posted by hvert
Going back to cleaning after two breaks sounds pretty good!! I am glad you are feeling better - it's so hard to do this stuff when you feel like crap.
I did buy a car, a small SUV to replace my Corolla which I loved to pieces. I think it may take a bit to get used to the size, but I like the car so far. Of course now that I've finished that, I'm stressed about all the food that's rotting in my garden and the disaster that is my house and paperwork and homework and travel etc etc. How is it already 9 PM? I have been in front of the computer for almost 4 hours?
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I read the 4 most current pages of this thread and I think you and I - and a few of the other women here - may be long lost sisters. I see myself (and my apartment!) in description after description of all of your posts - yours in particular, hvert.
I'm not even diagnosed but it doesn't take a doctor - just 2 open eyes and the willingness to be real with oneself: I have ADHD.
20 years ago I was on (brand) Adderall - oh what lovely focused, motivated, energized days. And boy, do I miss them.
Normally hyper(OCD)-organized, clean and clutter-free during my 20's, I started "slipping" when I hit my 30's. Adderall to the rescue. What a fantastic decade! Home spotless and not a stray piece of paper - nevermind a stack (!!!!) - laying about. Still wasn't doing too shabby right up to about 44/45yo. Then the you-know-what hit the fan. Generic (Teva I think) Adderall got reformulated and was rendered useless to me. I stopped bothering to take it. Multiple successive traumatic experiences, a hormonal tsunami......and I now have BOXES of un-opened mail for going on 18 months. Thank God for online auto-bill pay, calendar task reminder emails/pop-up windows and to-do-lists. Still..my home looks like a demilitarized zone. It's completely overwhelming.
Two weeks ago my psych NP gave me a DAW scrip for brand Adderall. It works out to $310/month. Does anybody take the generic and, if so, would you mind sharing your experience good/bad/indifferent and who the manufacturer is?
I'm amazed how I see myself in post after post in this thread. Glad I am not alone....but it still makes me feel so anxious and depressed.
