I have lost several friends to this illness over the years. One was once my best friend at a time when I was very, very sick. She was like a mother to me and I honestly believe she became tired of taking care of me. She just abruptly stopped talking to me. These days we are friends from a distance (it doesn't help she lives in Hawaii, I in Kentucky). We see each other about every 3 years and talk on facebook about once or twice a year. Another friend that I grew up with stopped talking to me after a heated argument. I am still confident in my position but disapointed in my reaction. Lately another friend of mine, who lives out of state, has stopped calling me when she comes to town (which is several times a year). The rare times we talk, she says she misses me and will call the next time she is in town. She never does. I think it's because the last time she was here, I just didn't want to go see her. I couldn't get out of the house; also, my phone calls were less and less. It breaks my heart. I try to find joy in the friendships I do have, especially my best friend, and try not to let it weigh me down. I'm so sorry this happened to you. It sounds like these were not meant to be your friends. Can you go to a local DBSA group? It's a great place to make friends who will clearly understand what you are experiencing.