I just simply don't know where on earth to put this post.

My ex has copd and still lives in our home. He got out of the hospital Sunday and came home on hospice. I am his power of attorney for everything. So far the nurses do not believe he will last until the Holidays. I am so very sad and I don't know how to handle this.

I have witnessed many people passing but this was my husband my lover and my friend. Will I be able to sit with him as I have with many others over the years? I don't know.

I am mad as hell at him because he took too many drugs that caused his lungs to fail even more and throwing our marriage away and now he is dying. Lord knows I love him but I can't help him anymore.

I am so lost.