How we are still together is beyond me. My hubby has put up with a lot from me but going back to see therapist tomorrow as I believe that without intentionally meaning to he presses buttons in me that trigger attacks and he cannot see that he does it, let alone listen or try to change his behavior in any way. Because my behavior has been bad in the past, it´s as though he can do whatever he wants and daughter is now following suit. I´ve no doubt they both love me (as I´m feeling pretty ok right now, ask me tomorrow and you might get a different answer lol) but they just don´t understand how to be around me when I¨m not so ok.

I´m glad you have found the one Wiretwister, I think I have too, I used to be sure. Hopefully we can find a way to understand each other and communicate or this could be the end of the road for us. My closest friends blames him for the majority of what is up with me and thinks that although he loves me, he is a negative influence on me. I don´t know what to believe and hope tomorrows trip to chat will help me sort my head out.