I have no other way to explain what I've been experiencing. I'm not sure if I'm really having flashbacks and if I'm telling my pdoc the wrong thing. I'll have moments in which I feel like I'm sucked into the past and I'm back there. I feel like I haven't aged a day and that I'm that 11 year old being abused again. When this happens I want to scream and cry and beg for me to not be hurt.