I can't shake this feeling of hopelessness at all and I don't know what to do. No matter what good or bad happens one thing remains a constant, I just want it to be over with. I don't want to continue in this life I'm ready for the next phase because this day and age just isn't a fit for me. I'm 25 but I feel like I belong in the past, I don't have a place in this society and I feel like I'm not the strong willed person I need to be for my family and children. No one really knows I feel this way I put on a good front....and EXCELLENT front but deep down I'm a man torn down to pieces by constant failures, a detached family that has always acted as if my mental/emotional issues doesn't/didn't exist and I just want to be done. I'm tired of fighting these demons, I'm tired of feeling worthless, tired of dealing with life and the many obstacles I just don't have any fight left in me. I've watched dreams, goals, aspirations, opportunities dwindle and die out in front of me, ideas go to mush or unsupported, jobs come and go why go through the emotional roller coaster? Why allow my kids to feel the residual effects of a depressed father? Why should my wife have to deal with me? It just isn't worth it anymore I feel trapped in the realm of the mundane nothing is poppin for me I'm just ready to go...