Quote:
Originally Posted by Justagir1
There are some differences - it seems like we have a similar experience but react differently. That, and by the sounds of it your 'overlay' is to objects, whereas my 'overlay' is on people. This was the line that most resonated with me:
'To clarify that more, about the images overlaying the actual sensory visual input, it's just literally that, my mind ignores the sensory input and sees something else instead, some image(s) that's loaded with negative content. This is with me directly looking at objects, not just from the corner of my eye'.
Most recently, I was talking to someone, and something they said triggered me and the next thing I know, Im still standing there, and Im looking at them, but Im also 'seeing' them in an abstract world. I can't any longer communicate with him in real life, but in the abstract world Im seeing him with all sorts of 'negative imagery'. Although I am completely aware it wasn't real, I can feel inside me reacting as if it is real. The biggest difference between us is that I feel the complete opposite of compelled or drawn in to this world. I want to run away screaming. I hate that this negative imagery can have such a bad affect on a good relationship. That it can intrude on my life whenever something good is happening. I really want it to stop.
|
Oh that's very interesting.. :s I hope you'll get it sorted out. Do you have a diagnosis btw?
I wish I wanted to run away screaming too.. but I'm instead feeling that desire/pull... is what really weirds me out if I think about it. That's what gives me the feeling/hunch that it really means my mind is gonna break down due to inability to cope with reality any longer. Because, while I don't know what is actually happening, I do know it's to do with (not) coping with reality.
And if one day I get pulled into this enough and give up on coping with reality, I don't know what's next then..