Rebel.....For a year in therapy I discussed the various forms of abuse Ive been through.In my mind it made things worse for me.
Still today,at 40,those things are still painful however Ive started to learn that If I want to move on with my life I had to stop focusing on them.
Most of what I went through,I blamed myself......any loss of control in my environment Ive felt right back into the victim role.Forgiving yourself,allowing yourself to feel angry and most of all to try loving yourself is the best medicine.

I wish you all the best Rebel.

Ps......it takes a long time rebel to work these things out,but hey,at least your trying right?