Thanks.

Christina - I want to assure you that both taking 2 ambient (1 then wait, and if you still have enough time for 8 hours sleep, take a 2) and addiing Xanax if I still haven't fallen asleep are things I have discussed with my shrink and he supports. Plus I'm on a tiny xanax dose, .25 so taking three isn't very much at all.

I've gotten a whopper of 3 hours of sleep since Sunday morning. Last night was unsuccessful as well. I have an appointment on Friday but based on how I'm feeling, how my friends have observed my behavior and what my therapist thought last night, I'm going to the doctors office this morning without an appointment hoping to be seen early.

I'm really nervous and scared, about dealing with the awful office staff, about upsetting my doctor for coming in without an appt (which he has never had a problem with) and ultimately what we decide my diagnosis is. Ultimately, I don't care what the diagnosis is, I just want to feel better, but after dealing with depression for half my life, the thought of now having to manage mood swings, makes my heart hurt.