I know how you feel, just went through that myself. I NEVER breakdown and cry....Just don't do it, but I did in the shower the other day...so totally unlike myself I though WTF is going on....I was soooo despondent...than then I did what I had to to take care of myself and I am getting better and more stable today.

Just take good care of yourself, call someone you can talk to, or your Dr. office, and eat/sleep/medicate properly.