Today's not any better. I've tried to stay positive these last few weeks but I'm having a really hard time. Circumstances outside of my control are coming to the end and the outcome isn't going to be good. I'm going to lose my job for sure. Maybe my house with it. I don't know what to do.

I didn't sleep well last night unsurprisingly. That feeling of sadness is deep inside and even speaking about them to others is making me noticeably upset. I can barely be bothered with such things like eating.



What can I do? All I can do is smile. Smile and pretend that everything is fine. I am not fine.