i should get myself a t, but the problem is most t's don't understand me. my pdoc understands me, and i'm grateful for that. it's practically impossible for me to find a t because i've been deaf all of my life. i was raised in the hearing world without being taught any sign language. i learned how to speak, and do so well. on my own, i learned how to lip-read. i can't lip-read everyone. some just talk too fast, have accents, or have factors that prevents their lips from forming right with words. many don't even understand a deaf person with depression. and my perspective is pretty different, seemingly normal and not, due to my deafness. going to therapy sessions is so exhausting and draining. i've been in therapy for years and got nowhere because of their lack of understanding. i'm a deaf person stuck in the hearing world. stuck between worlds, actually. group therapies never work because i can't keep up at all. and the overlapping conversations. that's why i come here. i know it's not a replacement for a therapist. i wonder if doc john or someone else does one-on-one sessions on the internet. the net is a boon to me because it's all "closed captioned." lol