do you go to therapy? therapy can help...
i know how you must be feeling, i was in an abusive manipulating relationship for 4-5 years...
everything she told me was a lie and i was being duped at every turn...
i was stupid not to realize it sooner, but when i finally called her out on everything the truth came out and the relationship fell apart
i dont know how to love anymore
im still fighting the pain and emotional scars...

i can only say that this is a good thing for you to get away from him
things can improve with hard work and time
im happier being single and depressed rather than being happy and being lied to about everything

im sorry you've had to endure so much