honestly, i'm heartbroken. my work was my family (and is how we address one-another, it is a place with very few employees [less than ten] and we are very close because we spend most days together). being unwanted, unnecessary in a family environment resonates with my own family history- alcoholism, drug abuse (none of which i partake in, i'm sober), so that hurts most.

i'm doing better. i got a decent amount of sleep for the first time in a long time, am looking into jobs/writing cover letters, going back to school, and my husband is more supportive than i could have imagined.

just... thank you all so much

i'm climbing that mountain, or, you know, at least packing gear.