Pinksoil -

I know for me when people are nice to me - I get scared. I am waiting for the other shoe to drop, so if I push them away before they can hurt me. I don't want to be hurt anymore, so I sabotage what is good. I remember telling T I couldn't trust so and so - and he showed me that they were safe and trying to reach out to me, but I knew there was more to it - that they were going to hurt me - they were setting me up - wanted something. T asked me to trust them just take it a day at a time. I have a wonderful beautiful friend today because I took that chance and didn't kick them out of my life or lash out at them. This is new to me. People being nice because they are nice. Just a thought. I so would love to engage with my T to the level that you do. But I can't. Maybe one day.