I just talked about this last night with my husband. We have been together for almost 13 years. Just in the past years he has come out and told me his true feelings about things over the years. I told him why didn't you tell me before. Last night he says he's been walking on eggshells over the years. I asked him "then why stay, I wouldn't want to be miserable." He said you just deal with it when you love someone. It hurts knowing I have hurt him, but he has acknowledged that I have been doing better the past few years. He always tells me as long as I keep fighting he will never leave. It's hard on the relationship, as is his chronic physical illness, but you keep fighting for survival and happiness. Be compassionate with one another and honest. I'm strong and won't give up on myself or on our marriage.