When I'm in a mixed episode I get road rage too, since I no longer work I try not to drive when I'm like that. But my poor cat has to listen to me ***** over insignificant nothings. I do rage and sometimes throw things but he never hides, just sits there and looks at me with his hurt way did you do that look. People who have never seen me in that state tell me they can't imagine me angry. If they do see me like that it's never the same. I grew up with the women do not get angry, women are nice philosophy I get so ashamed I mostly just hide away when I get like that. So far it's kept me out of trouble. I shop late at night to avoid people and rearrange appointments. I should try the two breath strategy.
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…Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …...
Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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