I could have written your post word for word almost.

I stopped abilify almost 2 months ago due to weight gain and pain/sickness associated with the gain.

I also stopped paxil at this time so the first few weeks, I had terrible withdrawl from paxil. I didn't notice any withdrawl from abilify. After the paxil symptoms went away, I began feeling great. weight dropped off, my appetite went to normal, I stopped sleeping 16 plus hours a day.

I began wanting another baby again. I've wanted one for 10 years (I'm 40) but I haven't been well enough.

Soon I began obsessing about people making fun of me. Thinking people are watching me and making fun of me. My depression was getting worse and worse. Then the suicidal thoughts came back.

Now I'm back on abilify and paxil. I know I will deal with weight gain and increased pain and sickness, I'm stuck and don't know what to do.

I hope your therapist and doctor are helpful for you. I can't get into my doc for 2 months and just hope my meds start working soon.

Best of luck.