I have alternating thoughts... no pun intended
Sometimes I think of myself having alters and I can feel them come and go and hear their thoughts, feel their feelings because we're co-consciousness... until we're not.
THEN during a full swap I guess I AM them... if that makes sense. Like Sometimes I am me and mine, and then other times I am just Other. And I can be me with one feeling, then I can be Other with a different feeling.
This morning, for example, I was thinking about this thing with my mom needing to be in pt rehab. Even tho I had explained the situation well to the pt at the hospital, 22 (my Elsa from Frozen; ice queen) was thinking all these mean thoughts of "what if... I bet.... they'll never...". But I tried to bat those away.
I get to the hospital, and sure enough Mom's cleared to go home. Suddenly I AM Elsa. I don't give a crap. I stare moodily out the window, even though I felt good just 20 minutes before. I make my mom cry. I can't even feel like I can say Elsa did it because it was ME AS OTHER, vs me in the back noticing other alters in front....
?????
I haven't been able to shake that mood all day, even when they un-cleared mom and kept her there. (YAY!!!!) I should be happy. But I'm not. I'm moody and irascible. Likely exhaustion.

Meanwhile, when I read your title, I thought of the pic on the net of the cute white kitten with big eyes staring out the window with the caption:
"I really want you to pet me... but I also kinda want to bite you". Quite apt.

There's a man RN coming to my house Friday: just as the scheduler said "His name is ___", and I registered A MAN, she asked if I had any animals in the house that he needed to worry about... I thought of Thaila (wild Child) and her biting... I almost said "Only internally" but my speech was blocked with all the thoughts of Man, animal, Thaila... she had to repeat the question.
I hope I didn't get too off topic.