Yes. every day. i still have positive feelings towards him because before he abused me, he was a likable person, most abusers aren't going to show that they have major flaws or else why would we gravitate to them in the first place? so life is this process of trying to let go of someone because they're not who they used to be.

but in simpler terms, yes, what your going through is normal.

Also, I am impatient with my growth as well- and recovery- but growth is like a flower- most people don't try to rush the growth of a flower, they let the flower take its course, that's the only way the flower will receive everything it needs to bloom sufficiently, you have to let it take its time to grow- similar to ourselves, we have to be gentle with our hurts, asking ourselves, if this was a friend of mine I was talking too, would I be so harsh?

I know, sometimes the hardest person to treat kind in life is ourselves. So, once again, this is normal, you will grow stronger and you will overcome! but you can't quit, you can't give up.