I've met this guy, and we both like each other, and i wanna give it a shot. But i totally freak out in relationships. I freak out meeting anyone at all. It's just 100 times worse when i start going out with someone. I tense up. My mouth and throat dry up to the point where i can hardly even talk. I get so nervous i feel sick and my whole body shakes to the point where i can hardly stand up or walk or anything. And if it gets bad enough i get really hot, start to sweat and can hardly breathe. i basically have a panic attack. i told him all that and eh says he understands. I hope that'll be that and it will gradually get easier for me. But what he doesn't know is that the main cause of it is the voices in my head telling me i can't do it and i'm just acting like an idiot and so on. And i can't see the voices ever going away so i don't know how to calm the anxiety. help. i don't wanna *mess* it up again
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