I know you're right, and I am trying, but it feels hopeless. The best I can hope for is a call back from one of these local fast food or grocery store places, and then it will likely be part time and minimum wage, still not enough to get out on my own and support myself. I'm mostly just irritated that eve for a short while I actually let myself believe she wanted to do something nice for me like that, that there wouldn't be major strings attached or that it wouldn't wind up being one of her stupid power games. I should know better by now.