I'm glad you are being referred to two specialists for more evaluation and assessment. Your primary care doc is being conscientious.

That is typical for aids on the floor to evolve their own system that doesn't correspond to the official assignments. That's awfully frustrating to a new employee, trying to make sense of when to be where. Keep in mind that these employees who've been there for maybe years, in some cases, have tried different approaches and their "private" system is the product of experience with what seems to work. Sometimes the charge nurse doesn't even know why they are doing what they are doing.

When you are new, it's a good idea to defer to more experienced staff. Let yourself be "bossed around" for awhile, even by co-workers who don't have a job title any higher than yours. Don't feel humiliated by that. It's part of the dues one pays in the beginning. As you've said, you don't feel real organized yet, so allow yourself to be directed by others for awhile. Yes, your co-workers could be nicer about how they communicate with you, but be patient and just put up with some ill humor for now.

When you find yourself thinking that everyone is faulting you, from DON to CNAs, ask yourself: "Is it very likely that I'm right and the whole world is wrong?" Right now they are all seeing your inadequacies, which do stick out like sore thumbs. Time will change that. You can only get better. Meanwhile, be the first to jump up to answer lights. This is kind of like boot camp, where all new recruits take a bit of abuse. Let it roll off. You are becoming a stronger person.

Maybe this is not your calling for the rest of your life, but learn what you can from it. You'll take lessons from this experience that can make you a better person in whatever you do next. Lesson #1 is humility.