Can anyone help interpret this dream.

I dreamed that I was laying on a hospital table, semi conscious and the doctor and nurses had trouble incubating me. I could feel the long tube go down my throat with great force. I started gagging and they pulled it back out long enough for me to catch my breath, but after catching my breath, they again shoved the tube down my throat. I could hear them talking and they talked how I always made my illness worse than what they thought it was and how I now deserved what I was getting, that it was what I wanted all along.

It repeated the same thing over and over, but each time the conversation and doctors/nursed changed, on the last attempt to get the tube down my throat, I sat up on the hospital bed and grabbed the tube and shoved it down my throat as they yelled at me to swallow, swallow they kept saying...

I woke up and usually when I have bad dreams I realize that I am dreaming, but this time was different, it was very real to me, so much so, I didn't know where I was when I woke up.